There are certain periods of life that have music attached to it. My husband’s accident and hospital stay have some very specific tunes tied to them. Some of them might make you question the stability of my mind.
Mark’s Life Flight journey brought him to the hospital at about midnight and he was wheeled into surgery within the hour. For me, on top of all ready being emotionally spent, it was late, and getting later. And I don’t do late nights as well as I did, oh say, 10 years ago. I felt like I was going to puke the entire night as I waited outside of the O.R. And of course, in my exhausted, nauseous, worried state the songs that were playing repetitively in my mind were:
Party in the U.S.A. – Miley Cyrus
Dynamite – Taio Cruz
Calfornia Girls – Katy Parry
It’s like the perfect “Slutty Chick Mix Mashup” – I think D.J. Earworm could put that mashup together in a snap! But really, what does that say about my traumatized brain?!?!?
Once Mark was out of his medically induced coma, a friend of his brought up an iPad for him to borrow that was packed with music. Mark immediately put on the “Into the Wild” soundtrack by Eddie Vedder. He could barely talk but said “This is some of Eddie’s best work . . .” as if they were good buddies. 🙂
That entire album was perfect and was played often. The songs that resonate the most:
Gave me hope
Pretty much perfectly echoed how my soul felt sitting in the ICU
Reminds me of sleeping on the couch in the afternoon in his room
Gave me a sense of energy
And then there was a day that was particularly gloomy – the weather matched the way I felt. I was driving to the hospital around lunch time one day. I was exhausted and discouraged and the sky was dark and heavy – just getting ready to pour rain. I pulled off the freeway to turn to the hospital and noticed some cracks in the dark clouds showing some bright light in the sky. This song came on:
And now, here we are back at home, still recovering but it seems like we’ve returned to our regular life’s soundtrack, at least for now.